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Wednesday, July 15, 2009

How Big is our Heart..

Seriously, blogger need to come out with password protected feature so we can lock certain post and keep it to ourself.

Perhaps the growing of age and realize that there are many silence readers, make me shy to write out all of my feeling in this very blog of mine like before.

That's why I have been neglecting my blog for so long.

Starting to store everything in my heart. I wonder how big is my heart. Anymore empty space for the future secret??

Started to scare of myself. What am I turning myself into??

Emotionless. I dun cry anymore, I dun talk much, I smile even I am frustrated. Everything that happen in this world seems like doesn't related to me anymore.

Even my family, I can't seems to find them. Guess they are used to the life without me. Can't blame them, it's been 4 years I was staying outside.

Nothing more better than sleep. Sleep is the best solution. *off to sleep*

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Sunday, June 28, 2009

Hanging out with buddizeee~~~

200609 Negi, Sop and Ayu~~

We had a small gathering at MidValley. Yumi can't join us, so there is only 3 of us. T___T

Introducing~

This super damn leng zai Negi is my ex-housemate in Wangsa. His real name is Ryan, but I owes call his maple name, Negi. hehe

He hor, I hate walking beside him de lor, coz I can see almost every girl that pass by us will take a quick glance at him. Foreigners who is less shy will direct look till he walked away.

I tell Sop, there sure think why he hang out with a ugly girl like me. I better walk far a bit. ==

Another leng lui beside him, not need to introduce de lor, she is my well-known de bou bui.~~

Becoz too hungry, me and bou bui go eat sushi 1st while wait Negi arrive.

Negi reach around 2pm and we meet up at Chilis.

Negi's salad~

Sop Sop dunno what drink~~

Mine, chocolate banana, look fatty but I love it~~ yum yum

Refillable chips, we try to eat as many as we could but we can't even finish the 1st refill. haha

Chit chat about life, study and many many.

Negi is a bit sad that day coz he faced some problem. Hope he will be fine soon.

And we went shopping de.

We took this pic when Negi choose a cap for himself.

Yeah, I totally agree by buying things to shower ourself will make us happy when we are sad.

Not less than 5 minute, Negi decide to bought himself a grey cap that cost him around RM160.

Before dismiss, of coz photo-shooting time. keke

Take 1~

Take 2~

Take 3~

Take 4~

The End~ Looking foward for our next gathering. All the best and Jy in life. ^^ I will always remember the time you and Yumi help me. Forever in my heart. ^^

That night, I overnight in bou bui house. Like before, the most we talk about is gossip. kaka
Different from secondary time, we can't stay up till morning de. Old le, I think. @@

210609 K-Box~ing

The next day, we went to Pavillion to singK. Is my 1st time singK with bou bui. Didn't count the time we sing SHE songs behind the class. hehe

I hate my voice coz is so speciallllll zzzz...So I don't dare to sing and I don't think I can sing. So, I always didn't follow if my classmates go kbox, unless mwey got go. keke coz we 2 always go for the food only. hehehe

Some wu liao pic took outside pavillion. =P

Rd Box Plus, a more classy and more target to family. Before it launches, I was asked to give opinion on the logo selection coz that time I work for Green Box. Is my very 1st experience that I remember till now. Kinda funny, and I think I am so stupid. @@

Buffet tag~

Protector, I like it, so cute and hygiene. You don't have to smell other people saliva. eukkk

The coke, we ask for refill till at last they give us whole jug. =P

Overall, Red Box Plus is nice. RM 25 per person for 4 hour include buffet with super good service. Haha but hor, too good till they keep come into your room. @@

I bought a new contact lense. Struggling between brown and black, and I took black at last.

Nothing much different but it just look nice and nature. hehe

This is Encore brand with RM45 per box for one month.

BB cream start to become everyone needs. It gives a really nice effect to your skin.

This one from The Face Shop strogly recognize by Sop Sop. RM 59.90 without sunblock.

See the close up of my skin under the sun, purely without editing, after I apply bb cream. Really gives a lot of different.

Hehe, next, I turn my handphone into bling bling~~ wuhoo ~~

And bought a new shelter for her. Yeah, my handphone is a her like me. But she was too cool for bling bling I think. @@

Cha Cha~~ Plastic protector, RM 35 for one side only.
Pink bling bling~ Rm 12.90

Back side, lollie pop~ RM 3.90.

And this, copy Croc de style, Rm 20. Awww..so cuteeeeeee....

After spent nearly RM80 on my handphone, the bling bling only last for 2 dayz.

Can't tahan see the dirt that stick there, I peel it off de. @@

This keychain from bou bui. ^^

Storey book, RM 5 only. I read it last night, is about vampire. Scare me till I need to hold my Rosery when sleep. I keep felt that a vampire is looking at me from outside my window. T___T

Lastly, this is dermal-E. I need it to cure the scar of pimple at my face. It was out of stock and I have been finding it at many outlet. Finally got it, the last box. Phew~

Each tube coast RM 2.20 and consist of nature vitamin E. So, 10 is RM 22. If you buy 30 tubes, is around RM70 sth, will be cheaper a bit.

Tomolo start working de, Tat's the end of my update for this week. Next week will update on Pinky Lady wedding. ^^

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Saturday, June 27, 2009

Internship. Family Trip. Father Dayz

If not mistaken, this was the first weekend I stayed at home since I come back from Sarawak, one month ago. o.O

I must stay at home de, Going out and overnight outside make me spend my money like using water. @@

So relax, able to read my story books, sleep, do mask, edit photos and of coz upload my bloggy. keke

1st: Internship

Here is my internship photos, or perhaps more to camwhore pic. *paiseh* hehe

This is the safety zone I was talking about. It was my 1st month working's space. Now, I switched to Mac de. This place was so save. Save in the way I can freely facebooking, pet society, restaurant city, barn buddy, chatting o.O I miss my ex-place. T__T

This is other collegue's working space.

Kaka~ shoot when I was getting bored during work.

At home before go out~~

Inside the car waiting for company gate to open~

Upside down @@ Too bored!!!

I wonder why working doesn't provide uniform. Getting headache to find 5 set of clothes per week and try to prevent from keep repeating. @@

Sometime when I am in a good mood, I wear semi-formal. keke To make myself really felt like going to work.

I have gain so much weight since working in office. So, I put on a jacket to cover my tummy to gain back some confident. Poor me. =( and I am trying to quit dinner now.

Sometimes, I wears like as if I am going to shopping. @@

This lagi teruk, winter day meh.. zzzz

This... Noooooo...I won't wear like this to office. Later people say I fatt hao. This pic, misplace liao. Should be when I go out with Sop Sop de. Coz got wear earing. heheH

Everything in office goes well, just me myself doing things too slow. T__T and sometimes get irritated by aireen and mguang's relationship problem. Sorry, just to be honest. =X I am not a good supportive friend cause I prefer not to be a kepoZi.

2nd: 040609 Family came KL~~

Due to Gawai, a celebration at Sarawak which is a public holiday, Daddy, Alex and Kelvin come to KL for 4 dayz trip. Judy unable to join since her holiday was only one day. Daddy them direct went to Genting for 2 dayz become came to KL. I can't join them coz I was working. That time, I was thinking, if study so good. I can skip class and run to Genting de.

So, on Saturday, they reach KL and I go to meet up with them.

First, we had breakfast somewhere near Sg Wang.

My chicken rice with salty egg. hehe

Daddy's prawn dumpling soup.

Kelvin's toast.

Alex finished his food before I start shooting. @@

This is my daddy~~

Alex, one year younger than me de brother. We used to quarrel a lot. But, now, he was the one who owes secretly borrow me money when I am broke. *wink* He like to stay beside daddy and keep him company all the time. He is willing to give up his teenager life and live like an ah pek just to make sure my daddy doesn't felt lonely.

Below is Kelvin, my youngest brother. 4 years younger than me. 17 this year. A weirdo. Is okay, coz everyone goes through this stage at the age of 17. He seldom talk and he loves friends more than family. He believes family doesn't care about him but he don't know actually we love him more than anything else. I owes can't control my tears when I heard him played the song "Siapa" repeatly in his room. The song start by "Grandma, I miss mummy." in chinese. As a sister, I really don't know what can I do for him.

Oh my, this suppose be a happy trip. Why I write thoese things. @@

So, here is the hotel we are staying in booked by daddy's friend. For me, Malay Hotel... NOoooooo!!!

Room 203. ^6^

Curi-curi snap daddy. He was so happy when know his friend win a lot from Uncle Ling.
Daddy lose many this time. But, we told him, nvm, come out is just to play and have fun. Win or lose doesn't matter.

Kelvin waiting for his turn to take bath~

Me..keke

Toilet's mirror is the best place for self-shoot. Agree? haha

Alex try watever food he can found on street. One of it. @@

Daddy said, Alex and Kelvin wan't to know the feeling of sharing public transport with other people. I believe they never take any bus or taxi at hometown. @@ So, I bring them to OneU using public transport, coz our main destination is Shogun. My family love sushi so I recommend them to there.

We took monarail from Sg Wang to Dang Wangi, than Putra to Kelana Jaya and taxi to OneU. @@

Daddy pose handsomely~

When reach OneU, Alex told me. So suffer just to reach here. I answered, now you know my life at here ler. He said again, why so suffer you want to stay here. I answered, because if I stay as a princess at home, I can't learn. And he agree.

Since guy doesn't do shopping, as for my family de guys, haha they just wait for the time Shogun buffet start. Daddy sit and drink at here with Alex. I go to shop with Kelvin.

There is some game's roadshow at OneU. The contestant damn kua cheong de lor. They bring own mouse, keyboard and even mouse pad. @@

Finally, our Shogun feast started.

I put de, so many mushroom, I lubb it. kakaka

I ask daddy. Daddy, Daddy, 60 dollar per person worth mar?? Daddy answer, Yes, of coz. I ask Alex again, You think 60 dollar worth mar? Alex nod his head. Later daddy said, I wonder how they earn money this way. I answer, who know their shark finn is use plastic do de ler. kekeke =X just a joke. I am happy cause they are satisfied with this meal. Next time, when you all come again, we go Jogoya de. heheee

Before go back to hotel, I asked them, So, public transport again? NOOOoooooo!!!!! Their responded. So we grab a taxi back. I think is quite cheap and worth for four person.

Only RM29. Send till hotel's door. hehe

The next day, wake up and get packed to airport. Daddy don't want me to follow but I insist. Luckily I went and give them accompany coz the flight delay for almost 2 hour.

I said: Why hor, I sit AirAsia for almost 4 years liao, minimum 6 times a year, I never get delay de. You all so soi hoh. kekeke And daddy say, Yalor, if not won't lose so much to Uncle Ling. @@

So, we camwhore while wait.
I look ugly coz you never had enough time to make when you are going out with family. @@

Daddy face show, Doesn't me seems like too old for camwhore? kekeke

Why dun have Kelvin? coz I scolded him. The way he yell at daddy. He said his girlfriend will break with him if he din buy strawberry for her. I said, the first thing you do when you reach Sarawak is to dump this kind of gf. And he gets angry and don't want to talk to me till the moment they went in for boarding.

And off they goes home and left me alone controlling tears inside the bus back to PJ. And wtf a guy try to act friendly and talk to me when I was about to cry. So throw face lar...T____T Needa wait till September to see them de. I miss you all very muchy.

3rd Post: Happy Father Dayz!!!

This is my card to daddy. ^^ by post laju. Wonder why I din use e-cards? coz daddy keep a box of our cards. Every year during his bday and Father Dayz. It becomes a family tradition.

No add, coz I forget my house address. T__T My family moved when I was studying at KL, so my mind was keep stick to the old adress at Hock Lee Garden. I can't make myself to remember the new one. "Thankyou Mr Postman" my mummy used to teach me to write so, coz she said postman did a hard job to send our letter.

I owes lazy to write this behind the card but daddy will scold if I didn't. He say, what if the card failed to arrive? They can send back to you using the adress behind.

This is how the cards read.

Hmm, this got a bit untrue. Daddy seldom give us advise, He always say, up to you whenever we asked. He just make sure we never lack of money to use. He don't care also if we spend too much. @@ He just doesn't wake to upset us. He won't get angry if I skip class. I ever skiped class for one week and he didn't even say a single word. And I started to felt guilty. Maybe this is the way he teach his child. He doesn't scold but he make us think. Encouragement, is true. He is always be there for us, no matter what.

Here is very true. He is the greatest dad that we could always count on.

Daddy wait for my card at home since Alex can drive worker to work for him. But, I upset him by drawing mama inside the card. I am sorry, daddy. I dunno you will upset. Because, I draw the whole family, I don't want to left out mummy. T____T

That night, as usual, webcam and see daddy cut cakes. Is the fourth year, I didn't goes back. haiz..

The ice-cream cake. Vanilla ice-cream, daddy fav. And they off to Park City Everly for Father's Day Buffet. T____T I eat bread and chili tuna here. So charm. Anyway, Happy Father Dayz. I Love You, Daddy. The only things you need to do is take good care of your health and enjoy ur life. Coz you have the four of us. We might not be very useful, but I believe we can earn enough to take care of you. ^^

Labels: Family, Father's Dayz, Internship, Love and Carez

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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Wordless

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Labels: Emo, Frustrated, Hate, Sad

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sayang. u hv me T3T

By -Sop-, at June 25, 2009 6:55 PM

T_____T

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Monday, June 22, 2009

as fake as a doll

Oh my, don't think, don't think...Go sleep~~~

Feel nothing, Hear nothing, See nothing.

Did you ever face this problem?

See yourself in the mirror and think yourself is fcking fake?

Wearing mask in life is just what human must do...

Still the same term, the world is round. We will just wait and see.

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doll very fake meh?

By -Sop-, at June 25, 2009 6:55 PM

yaya, pretend lifeless at morning and become alive at night...hahaha

By -misaMisaN-, at June 25, 2009 10:40 PM

eerie wtf

By -Sop-, at June 27, 2009 12:01 AM

kekekeke

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Thursday, June 11, 2009

Thursday June11

Life as a working adult flies so fast. Another weekend is here.

Woot... My life is so great like this. Working, having lunch with colleague while learning to social, finish work and go to have some gathering with friends and come home, is time to sleep de.

I can make my mind clean from nonsense thinking like what I owes did before.

Even weekend is fully book till next next week. Izzit every working adult live their life like this? Last week, my daddy came. This week, Pinky Lady's wedding. Next week, reserved for bou bui, negi and yumi gathering. Needa add one more day to sing k with bou bui. Really xiang sing ler... I want to go clubbing with Joe too, hmm, but seems like I can't go coz they are going this week.

I had to get a sleep now before wake up early to get my mask and nail done. Also had to get pack and choose suitable clothes to attend Pinky Lady's wedding. Getting so exited. We will overnight there coz she had booked hotel for us. Just that, I realise I don't have dress and heels. Awww....

Finish work at 6pm and Yoke Mui will pick me up at Mid Valley at 7pm, coz she don't know how to come to my house, and I don't know how to tell her the road to my house. @@ I don't think I have time to bath and make up. Sad. T____T I gonna go as a ugly, sticky and oily monster!!! I hope there is no jam tomolo. T_____T Plzzz...DOn't jam!!!

TOMOLO!! Must finish 2 website layout on time. Rush back home to at least wash my face and stick my fake lashes. huor huor... Rush to Mid Valley. Hope everythings goes well as planned. This very sampat de Pinky Lady ar, she say wanna go to eat seafood with us after her wedding ceremony. I ask her, shouldn't you be serving your family and relative instead of going out with your friends? I really can't imagine she gonna get her stomach big with baby inside while jumping here and there.

The feeling of close friend getting married and having babey is so nicee... I wonder how it is when bou bui, siew hui, yumi or my sis getting married and having baby. kekeke... or perhaps aireen 0__o esther, wenny or mwey?? hahaha

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Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Wednesday, June 10

Time: 2.34pm
Venue: GD Advertising
Current Mood: Cloudy

Today, everyone around me seems like unhappy. Each of them facing their own problem.

He said, he was worried.
Another he say, they might break up
She ask, being single good mar?

A friend of mine, who try really hard in his life. He is hardworking and try very hard to accomplish his task. But, he just can't make it. Sometimes, this is call life I think. When you doesn't expect much, you get it easily. A person like me who spend 6/8 of my working hour on facebook's game, sometimes do get the luck to get my idea approve quickly. God like to play with human, I think.

Just like daddy. He was sad coz he lose quite a lot to Uncle Ling few day ago when he come KL. He said he was only able to give me RM 500 as pocket money 1st. I rejected and said that I still got money to use, but actually I only have RM 100, borrowed from my brother. My friend owes said, your daddy can give you money, why you don't want to take. I will just say, at the age of 22, I don't want to burdan my daddy anymore. Last night, daddy call me happily and said he win lottery. Quite a large amount of money. He bank in a lot for me too. Sufficient enough to pay my uni fee.

Like what I owes say, The world is round. Everythings take turn. Don't think too much and be sastified with what you are now.

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