Blog will be back soon.^^

Funny Mistake

2009-12-03T22:03:00.003+08:00

I did the wrong setting in my blog manager. I guess.

I set my ads preference to charity ads coz I wish charity ads to be shown at my blog. =X ~~*I thought choose anyone also can geh*~~

Because not a text type of people, I am lazy to read all the direction when join innit. ~~* I know my fault*~~

lol, keep wondering, why I din earn even have few hundred unique per month. ~~*actually still not really know hw it work to earn.*~~

Till just nw, I received a reply from nuffnang helpdesk.

Thanks to Nuffnang help desk. I change my selection and advertisement pop out at my blog... weeee~~~~

Anyone visiting mind to help me click? I wanna break my Zero earning. lol.

Thankui. Muah Muah...

~~p/s the ad sometimes will lost de~~. @@

Never been so Hardworking b4~

2009-11-28T22:12:00.004+08:00

Ehem, Since Tuesday, beside bath and eat and sleep, the rest of the time I was doing my fyp.
FYP stands for Final Year Project.

Thanks to my own stupid. @___@

Psychology exam was on 22th Dec. In between got 2 week = half month of holiday. So, decided to back hometown.

At first, I was like, *want mar hoh* 2 week, RM 300, wan mar ler?? wan mar ler? So, I called my daddy. Daddy say, Aiya, RM 300, my one time 4D money nia, back lar!. =_____= Inilah bapaku.

Used RM 700 to buy tickets. Back, come out exam 3 day, back again and come out again. @__@
Take flight like take bus. This happen when AirAsia give low fares. @__@ When I first come out 4 years ago, MAS was like RM 400 per trip. Now AirAsia offer as low as RM 6 a trip. RM 700 is kinda exp coz is Christmas month. Understandable.

After I have bought all of my tickets, I go for consultation the next day. Miss Lee told me, they just got inform that fyp submission extend one week.

Mutarfcker. I was like, har Missss, I bought ticket back on Saturday de liao ler.. Miss Lee faster run to staff room and double check for me.

No choice, I have to passup on time also. aihhh. No one more week for me.

So many things to do. Brand Identity, Logo, Cooperate Stationary, Poster, below The Line Item, Signage, Publication Design(12page!) , Website, TvC... Siao eh lor, and another Psychology presentation.

This is what happen when you study design at UTAR. Messy timetable, not enough facilities, even dv cam and studio also have to rebut. Some lec called you to find online tutorial becoz they don't know hw 2 do exp 3D max. =__=|| and don't understand why we have to take elective paper like Moral o.O and even Psychology! Take for 2 sem liao de hoh.... double O.O

Ohw FML. Back to work.

Doesn't know msn G-Files can know so many Gossip!

2009-11-26T01:04:00.008+08:00

First time click on the msn *Today News tab* where I usually skip them most of the time, nt most is every times. lol

Figure out so many gossip!!!

First:

Fan Wen Fang got H1N1. =(

By Nicholas Chow, MSN, Updated: 24/11/2009

The G-Files: Nov 25th

Singaporean actress Fann Wong bitten by the H1N1 bug

Popular Singaporean actress Fann Wong became the latest celebrity to be diagnosed with the H1N1 influenza.

The 28-year-old actress returned Thursday (19.11.2009) from a business trip to Hainan Island and on Friday (20.11.2009) developed flu symptoms and a fever. She was diagnosed that evening with the virus and is currently on a 10-day medical leave.

Because of that, the production of her new comedy Happy Go Lucky had to be put on hold. We at MSN send our best and hope she gets well soon!

Get well soon my nu shen.

Second:

Lied by the title that said Mrs Andy Lau, was a former prisoner.

But, it actually saying the incident where he book the whole cinema to watch Michael Jackson’s "This Is It" with his wife.

Andy accompanied Carol to watch movie

Posted on 14 November 2009 by admin

On 5 November, Andy Lau brought his parents and Carol Zhu Liqian to watch Michael Jackson’s This Is It, enjoying family bliss.

Since being exposed of his marriage, Andy had always refuse to talk about Carol, she was nowhere in sight when celebrating his birthday with his fans. Actually Andy and Carol has an understanding, she’s not allowed to leave her house, all matters will be handled by the maids, it seems that she’s in a bride prison, to become the woman behind the heavenly king, is not easy. According to insider revealed: “Andy’s direction towards wedding is rather to let others know than be seem, allowing the matter to rest slowly.”

Carol could not spotted shopping in public, but Andy does not want to bored her. On 5 November, Andy booked the whole cinema to bring Carol to watch Michael Jackson documentary film This Is It, his parents were also there together with his assistants and crew members. A private party sign was displayed at the cinema entrance, crew members of the cinema stand guard the cinema in order for Andy to enjoy the family bliss.

The cinema that Andy booked only have 23 seats, every seat is like a massage chair as it’s height can be adjusted, it’s very comfortable. The price of the cinema is also very cheap as the booking of the cinema cost just $4000, it’s worth it to spent $4000 to create a romantic atmosphere.

After the movie screening, Andy was told that reporters were waiting for him outside the cinema, he immediately bring Carol to leave from the backdoor.

news from: ent.16.com

Cool, if someone will book the whole cinema just to watch movie with me. Next life probably. ==

Third:

Lady Gaga despite being bisexual.

By Bang, Updated: 25/11/2009

Lady Gaga mad for men

Lady Gaga has revealed she is more attracted to men than women, despite being bisexual.

Lady Gaga prefers sex with men - because they have something she really 'appreciates'.

The 'Bad Romance' singer is openly bisexual and says she is able to be open in the bedroom because she can make a distinction between love and sex.

She is quoted by website Jetzt.de as saying: 'In love there are no rules or boundaries. But I separate love and sex. I just love the male sexuality. Men have something that I miss but that I really appreciate.'

Lady Gaga - who is renowned for flesh-flashing outfits - has always been adventurous when it comes to sex and showing off her body

The pop star - real name Stefani Germanotta - left her father Joseph Germanotta shocked when he came to see her dance in a gay bar.

She recalled: 'I was a burlesque go-go girl in a gay bar in the Lower East Side of New York. One evening my father came into the bar because he wanted to see as what I worked there. When he saw me dancing in a leather thong he turned around and went home.'

Still lubb my Taylor Swift more. gg.

Fourth:

Avril Lavigne dates 70s guy. Awww...

This Week in Music: Nov 20

Avril Lavigne dates that 70s guy, Adam Lambert's "too gay" for 19 and greetings from Taylor Swift. MSN Entertainment takes a look at the week in music.

Punk princess Avril Lavigne has a new boyfriend!

Question: What does punk princess Avril Lavigne have in common with Lindsay Lohan, Mandy Moore and Ashlee Simpson? Answer: They all find Wilmer ‘I’m-slightly-bigger-than-8-inches’ Valderrama very attractive!

Yup, the newly divorced 25-year-old pop star has been spotted in Wilmer’s arms, in recent weeks. The latest sighting happened at a Los Angeles night club where they were seen being very cozy with each other. Avril and Wilmer? You gotta be kidding!

Love is Blind or Money is Superb. I know I am bad. =P

Here is one nice line animation I saw today from Facebook. ~~*Must See. Super True, How guy try so hard to chase a girl, but actually you can make the girl chase you just by using money*~~ But of coz, I am not 100% agree. 50 lor okay?

Click Here

Saying girl luve money. Is true, coz I saw it in real life. Willing to be in a relationship just because the guy can feed him. Maybe is just another way to survive. hur hur~

Our Third Family Photo

2009-11-23T22:25:00.005+08:00

Short update, busy with final year project. T___T

Simply Just too Lubb the pic! ^__^

Share with you all. Today graduation's self shoot.

Photographer: David

Editor:Wenny

From right:Aireen, mWey, Wenny, Me, Esther

Heart our third family photo. When I am free, show you all the first and second one. ^^

Encrypted text work too good to relief my feeling without bothering anyone

2009-11-22T20:57:00.004+08:00

Show encrypted text

Write encrypted text better don't write, rite?

But, do just ignore me.

I am sad. I don't have personal diary, I don't have people to talk to. Just this very personal blog of mine.

I don't want to fear my family, don't want them to worried me far away at Sarawak, don't want to bother my best fren, or I just shouldn't, my other frenz, all rushing final year project, or the fact shows I don't have any friends? Well, FML.

Pablo Piccaso, Weeping Women, 1937

Hot Dog Mouth!! Save me!! T.T

2009-11-21T21:34:00.002+08:00

Save me!!!!! My mouth crack and red like a hot dog.. Naturally already had a big mouth, now worst again.

And more charm de is, Monday going to have a shooting for graduation picture. The picture will be project out big big! big enough for the whole hall's guest too see it, when I walk up to the stage. OMG! I don't want everyone to see my hot dog mouth. T__T Any good way to cure it in one dayz?

Hate myself lor.. Getting excited saw so many types of chili at uni's new cafeteria.I ate like mad for continuously 2 days. End up with cracked lips. @___@

Picture taken during outing, trying on Wenny's new Macro lens.

*My lips was so red without lipstick. I think I look like a *tai gap* in cantonese. @@ *

This one also. Luckily the blur effect cover some of it.

Awh God. Just please let my lips get better on Monday before photo session. Anitoufo Amen!

A Tale of Mari and Three Puppies

2009-11-18T23:17:00.003+08:00

9 out of 10 person who watch this will cried. T___T

Another tear dropping movie beside One litre of Tears and 10 Promises to Dog.

It just a trailer and yet it was so touching.

Can't wait for the download to finish. Fast Fast~ CepatCepat.. Kin Kin!!!

There is a first time for everything.. ^^

2009-11-17T16:52:00.004+08:00

lol~ mad excited. I have just bought my very first item through e-bay. weee... I know I am out-dated. But at least I try rite?

hehee... Doesn't know how to use paypal, so I actually paid using master card. But now I have a paypal account de. hur hur..

I bought this.

US$ 6.65, not sure how much in RM so I converted it using free converter. =__=

So, is RM 22.40.

Free shipping.

For me quite worth, coz I keep search for pink one but can't find one.

I plan to buy a black one and diy it become pink, but the black one at Malaysia cost me RM 40 plus. So, I gave up.

Actually I want this one instead of the one above.

But this one doesn't provide shipping to Malaysia. Awww... Sad. =(

I got the white one for this, but it turn yellow. =___= and doesn't seems to found the pink one.

I like this coz it make my phone super big and fat. Cute. lol~ and I can throw it here and there. The protection is so thick, so no worries.

weee~ so excited ...

Waiting for the parcel to reach Sarawak. Yeap, don't dare to put KL address as I can't go to post office to get it if it reach while I am not at home. @@

I tried before and make the postmen send for me for the second time..

Aww, the next time, I told my family to send to Sop Sop house. Safer. lol~

Pray pray it reach and I can have it when I go home 3 week later. ^___^

Psychology scares me

2009-11-16T22:27:00.004+08:00

Today, during psychology class, we have been discussing on the differences between *nei siang* and *ze pi zen*.

NS is like you are very shy and doesn't dare to talk to people. Mguang direct point at me. When talk about ZPZ, he pointed at me again. ZPZ is like you like to be alone. I wonder do I really act like that??

Then we discuss about how someone have mental problem and keep misunderstand that people hate her or talk bad about her. Esther point at me again.

Aww, I am so scare, coz I owes thought people don't like me and afraid to talk to them but actually they treat me so good, aldough, I didn't treat them equally good.

The serious step of this disoder occur when you keep heard the voice that doesn't exsist. I keep quite when I heard this because I heard sound frequently. T.T Am I have to go and find a psychologist?

I am really very scare.

I don't understand why I am so bad yet everyone treat me so good. I reject mguang offer to drive me to school like before actually is because I felt paiseh to keep ma fan people since my house was so near. I ever act weird like everyone waiting for his car to go home, but I insist to walk back alone. T__T until today, it was raining and I recieve a sms froom Aireen call me don't walk out, they come and pick me. I was like so.. uhhh, we are friends and why I have to act so weird. They will pass my house to go to school and back, why I cant just get myself to follow them.

The socond things I realise is when a coursemate of mine know I want to watch a movie but don't know where to download it. She call me too add her msn and she will pass me the link. I replied in Facebook. I don't have ur msn eh, but wont go and find her msn. Just sitting there and wait. But, she go and search for my msn and added me and pass me the link. She said "Don't know how to download must ask ya. " I was like .... Why I can't be a good person like her. So willing to help and so kind. Why do I get angry so easily.

Consultation change time and so many of them trying to find a way to get my handphone and inform me. One after another sms and msn me. When I walk into the room of consultation, the most I did is just smile at them. wtf me!! Why I just cannot be sociable a bit??

Why I owes have to chase away thoese who treat me good and stay to myself. Izzit I doesn't use my heart to appreaciate them?

Haven't been cried for a long time. Until I watch this trailer. Cry like heavy rain and I felt much better after that.

Really really so touching.

You know, I have been so bad that I don't felt like going home. Dad called me and complain how they treat him bad. Brother called me and say how dad act weird. Ahhhh...I felt like just staying at KL and ignore everything there. But can I be so selfish throwing my sis to faced all the problem? Guess I never can make it.

Food..

2009-11-15T19:26:00.004+08:00

Same with the Facebook post. hehe Just wanna try the feeling. "I can post large image de!!!" Don't have to resize each of the picture like what I use to do for my previous blogskin.

First, the durian cake. So cute!! We went to this 'Tan Shu Ge Ge" at SS2 after class one day. They decided to oder this and try. It was so cute and look so fake. I go and duk duk it. ahaha I like this pic very much. Don't know why. heheee

Kar Yee sliced it open and I decided not to eat it. So smelly like fark. I like durian but not after keep inside the fridge for so long.

Both four of them ate it and keep *uurkkk* inside the car and it smells horrible and

No one wanna admit who did it.

So, we keep laugh and say is me, the only one who doesn't ate it.

Second pic, was the steak from PitStop. We went there on the first day for the open ceremony. Before, this shop was called Uppeka. Same boss lady but doing different business.

The food was nice, lots of intresting games, good environment but the drink is a bit expensive.
But now, lady boss gives 50% discout on drink if we oder a main course. So, still okay.

The third picture, is some food from a Penang shop at ss2 recommended by Wenny.
Forget to shoot all other picture cause I am too hungry that day.

The waiter keep inroduce and show us how to eat curry noodle. They din realise there was actually two Penang's people at our table. lol~

Come to the Taiwan's junk food from SopSop.

The muachi. ^__^

I gave ah po and wish she will choose the sesame one coz I don't like sesame. But she choose the pick one!!

This is also one of my fav. Steel Egg. Ate it one time before when my day bring it back from dunno where. O.O

Within 2 days, I finish it up de. hor hor~

Here come the special one. Creative chocolate.

lol... condom and nen nen. =____= Human are really creative.

How to write a password protected post.

2009-11-15T04:05:00.010+08:00

Finally, My blog is back after the cacated code and lost it's skin for almost one month. O.O

Yeah, no header. @__@ no time to do lor. I will gib my blog a header during holiday. lol~

Is pink and white, simple and clean, My Fav!!...lol...

Downloaded the skin and take one whole night to edit the code to make sure my previous things was still all there.

Damn admire the creater of blogskin. Wish to learn. ><

Owes wanted to find a way to lock certain post but not the whole blog.~~*wonder why blogger didn't provide this service*~~

Here is a very easy way which I found from web.

Show encrypted text

The password for above is 123.

Tada~ Don't try 123 for my other locked post. Coz I won't so stupid to lock it with 123. lol ==

To do so, follow the simple tutorial below.

Java Script Encryption

Ignore other, You just have to do this step in the link.

The JavaScript decryption code

I am not sure if it work on new template. Do try.

Next, just follow the step in the link, and you will have a password protected post.

Anyone know how to re~able right click block?

Anyone have the code for like and dislike counter button? I want one. T_T

And also link to older post? O.O I don't have. So the bottom of my blog is cacated. =__=

If from your view got any more cacated things, do let me know. Thankui. I am afraid the margin of the white box is different at different screen.

Seriously. Need to sleep. Good Nite World.

There goes Oct 27 again.

2009-10-27T17:32:00.003+08:00

Show encrypted text

Oh No~

2009-11-03T20:23:00.003+08:00

My God, I never forget to pay my rent de. This was my first time. *malunya* Totally forget is November de. Guess the sel of trying not to care about everything is too much de.. @@

My blog lost its header. Script corrupted or slow browser. O.O aww whatever, I am too busy to create myself one. I will do it during holiday. ^__^

Got another cut on my leg, from my printer.== Oh Gosh, I owe blood ke this month?? =___=

Every Hardworking Shows Result.

2009-10-29T18:54:00.003+08:00

Since the day I come back to KL, opss I mean after the Genting trip, should be 3 week de.

I have successfully practice one meal per day, is either lunch or dinner. No snacks, eat more porridge(Sop Sop teach de), bee hun, less rice. I know is nt good if we didn't consume breakfast, but is alright for me, coz everyday I will wake up around 11-12 pm.

Since getting used to it, I wont felt hungry. Maybe sometimes, but just spam drink water.

This few dayz, I start to see the result. Replace one meal with usually de 4 meals is quit tough. I am so happy. Won't thin too much but at least I can wear back tight shirt with less meat squeeze out and I can wear my short pant and it wont squeeze out much of my meat too. hu hu

Friend will say, why do I have to slim down. But, they don't know my fat owes go to my face and lower part of my body. Tats why I have elephant leg. wu wu

Today, I present myself by having two meal of rice. ahahaha Sometimes, need to treat self better a bit de mah.. =P

Bleeding Experience.

2009-10-25T21:42:00.005+08:00

I never bleed so much before. This is my 1st time experiencing flesh tearing off from my skin. Is flesh u know, is not skin. Wu Wu. Strangely, it doesn't pain. At least till after I realize I really cut myself.

This happen one day when ah po make me move all of my thing and get my room painted. So, since my room is so small, I need to move some of my things outside my room. After whole day hanging around at living room, finally I can move my things in.

When I was moving my so called open-air closet I bought together with Shirleen at Wangsa Maju, I didn't realize it was overloaded with clothes and it collapsed. Like This!!

One of the steel cut my hand and it starts to bleed. I was stoned and looking at my hand. Oh, I get cut. I didn't panic till the I saw the blood keep come out and dripped to the floor. Quickly, I took some facial cotton and and clean the blood but it won't stop.

No choice, I run out and show ah po coz I don't have any first aid kit with me. Ah Po started to panic too and she run here and there looking for medic to stop my blood. I get back to my room and tell myself not to panic and find a way to stop the blood.

I recall Kenny once injured and took some medic back and it was still with me. Quickly, I pour out a bag full of junk bottle of lotion, shampoo, thoese hotel tiny bottle and I found the yellow things that can stop bleeding. Open the cap, I quickly pour it onto my wound.

Ah Po come into my room with a cloth on her hand. Quickly she tide my wound like thoese old people owes did. They din use plaster. Once I saw that, I can't control and I started to cry. Cry like if there is no tomorrow. Ahahaha... Just touched by her act. You know, when you are hurt and some one old care you like your mum or grandma, for sure will cry lor.

This is how she tide my wound using dump cloth. Traditional way. @@

I bleed this much. Saw the facial cotton at the back. Cover the blood de...

This is how deep the wound is. I took this pic at KarYee's house. As memory. ahaha There is a flesh flipping there and I wonder wanna peel it of or not. And I regret now for didn't. I got such an ugly scar. wu wu...

P/S seriously, remeber to prepare urself a first aid kit. When it happen, is really too late looking around.

What can I said, luckily I like to keep rubbish or luckily Kenny get into accident before and it saved me??/.

Kenny was my ex two years ago. Means the bottle was two years back before when I was still studying at ktar and staying at Wangsa. @@

Just, it was fated to happen and I will carry another scar with me again on my body.

Scar grow more as we get old. ahaha

Genting Again~

2009-10-15T23:29:00.010+08:00

12.14am I am so sleepy actually. But promised my sis to edit picture for her. So, while waiting for her to send me the chosen file and also finish sending Xui Xui to Esther, I will blog about this.

I named it Genting Again, because is the 3rd time I have been to Genting this year. gg

There was a free room and I was asked me if I want to go. I say yes, because I know I will for sure cried on the 1st day I back PJ. Hanging out with frienz will solve the problem. I owes afraid of the sudden feeling of leaving home feeling alone all by myself again. When I recieve the message from Sop asking me have I arrived, I really felt so great that at least I still have a true friend, here. I called three time back that day and my dad scold me. Why keep call home. @@

Upon arrival, I rush back to drop off my kip, pack some basic necessities and there we go, off to Genting. There was only 3 of us, coz most ppl havent back from hometown. I was early this time because at first our plan is Penang but cancled due to some reason.

We meet a bunch of Korean at bus and we keep on bump into them at Genting and we end up become friend and said Hi each time we meet. ahahaha

We didn't did much things there. The most we did is talk. Talk all the way in the journey, talk until morning and at last decide to sleep after we talk about ghost. haha I sleep like pig, same do Esther, but Aireen was scare till she didn't sleep. ahahahaha

We talk about almost everything. Deciding which subject to take between public speaking and Psychology. We strongly agree for sure the 5 of us will appear in psychology class. @@ Talk wuo, oledy half dead, nw is public de tim.

Result was out on the day too. But it doesn't allow handphone to view it. So, my saver Sop Sop check for me. Thanks bou bui~~ The web traffic was so high and failed to load and Sop keep try for me. *paiseh* Finally I knew my result on the next early in the morning. Kinda suprise and happy. But sad is, cgpa won't up. Aireen know her result 1st, and her cgpa remain. We thought there is some mistake there. When I got mine, same. @@ Can't understand lor, 7 credit hour, gpa 4, but cgpa up 0.08 nia... wu wu...But, nvm..better than dun hv lor..

Opss back to main topic.

Here are some picture freshly from oven and edited by XuiXui.. =P

Sampat Esther

Super Nice Pose~haha

This picture of mine, look so chubby.. haha I check my weight and hight with one machine at Genting and I decided not to have dinner for 1 month!!! omg, seriously I need to get thin. The stupid machine even announce out my weight. @@ but it measure my height as 165.5cm haha..I owes thought I am 164. But the 1.5 is from my sandal lar.. haha

This is a nice art from Indian durng Deepavali using some powder to make some image on floor. So nice lo...

This picture...haha we say we must post it just for Aireen. haha...

Okay tats a lot picture of me and Esther. We keep rebut the cam nia...haha

This trip we spend nt more than 50 dollar. But tangan gatal, me and Aireen lose 50 more to casino. @@ And we drank a lot of milo from Casino. Ya, and I din bring my ic in this trip. == and I never realise till the guard ask for my ic. @@

Reach home, I plan to sleep till the next day. But I can't. Keep try not to let the feeling come back, but I can't make it. Keep telling myself not to be scare. There is a lot of things you have to do by urself. Arghh..just hate why I turn myself become so useless.

Last but not least, my fyp supervisor is Miss Lih Su...Damn, I scare her lar. When I search for my name in the list, my heart tink, hopefully I dun get Lih Su, and I got her.. =_______________=

Introducing Meitu XiuXiu...

2009-10-08T14:21:00.004+08:00

I read about this Xiu Xiu in fourfeetnine.com before.

Try to google by keep typing Xiu Xiu and failed.

So, I gave up, till I read it again from Sop Sop's blog.

Of coz, I go and ask from Sop..keke and she send me the installation file...

Today, finally I get to try on it. So nice the effect.

I was stoned when they was such a perfect eye enlarging tools and blur too. <-- ok I am kua chiong-ing.

Most of the basic photoshop tools was inside, but Xiu Xiu gives better skin tone.

The one I like, dreamy and over-edited. ahaha

Some maybe cannot accept edit-ed photo coz it seems fake. So, it depends.

Tada~~ exposing original picture without editing that I simply took on my bed coming home from mooncake festival at beach.

No proper lightning, face was full with pimple. =( Sudden Changing of environment. So lor...

If using Photoshop, This is what I might get with my poor editing skills.

Using Xui Xui, tada~~~~

I luve the lighting and skin tone so muchhhh....Just like took in studio. Dreamy betul... ahaha The lower lashes look fake rite. The upper one doesn't coz I am wearing a fake lashes that time.. heheee...

keke...wanna try on it.

Download at www.meitu.com.

It's in Chinese but don't worry. A standard one Chinese like me also manage to edit one by simply click every button.

Thanks Sop Sop for sending me the software. ^..^

p/s Don't thrust too much on picture. We can do anythings on picture nowadays.

At the age of 22.

2009-09-14T12:55:00.004+08:00

At the age of 22, 22 years living on this world.

My family's life was getting better and better.

When we go out to eat, everyone fight to pay except me.

House was 24 hour air-conditioned now but I am not the one who paid for the bills.

There is a leisure car at home but I am useless enough that I still need my brother to come home and pick me up for dentist coz I can't drive?

Daddy can relax at home picking up calls like a consultant while my 2 little brother work for him outside. Is little brother you see? both younger than me!.

Everyone contribute to this family, but what have I did??

Coming home evey sem break sleeping, cooking weird dishes and make them try on it? Eat and gain weight!

Full time facebooking and take care of my farm?

Dreaming to have a Chow Chow when I start working?

Thinking how I am going to tie a ribbon to make this dog eyes become visible when I had one?

Wonder where should I go after graduate? KL or back Sarawak?

Think that enter a contest to win a ticket is faster than let daddy wait for me to earn money and bring him around the world?

Think of coming back Bintulu to be a clerk and how should I react when I meet those bitch?

Complaining that white ants bite my room's door and wonder if my door will fell off someday.

Hugging Blackie, my lil brother kitten and make it sleep on my chest. CAT, used to be one of the animal I fear most. Now I am too bored till I go and hug it! It's quit cute by d way, I mean Blackie.

After a long think, The most useful things I had did in my life is able to get loan! darn..at least I don't have to let daddy paid for my skool fee kayz.

Aihh...when people earns lots of money, or even be a mum for 2 kids, I am still here typing this and recall how useless I am.

Can I do something more usefull?? I am not a princess even they treat me like one. I want to contribute to my family too.

After graduate, If I got a job for RM1500, minus RM300(house rent include streamyx), RM 300(paid loan), RM 300( jimat jimat de eat), RM 200(lrt fare), left RM 300, if I wan buy mask? makeup stuff?? When I gonna save enough to bring my dad around the world??!!!

Aihhh....doing meaningful things! okay I will go joging tonite!!!!

-The useless, me at the age of 22.-

Live on. No regret.

2009-09-01T21:50:00.011+08:00

One Litre of Tears once touched thousand people's heart. It's a movie that make me cry over and over every time I watched it.

I found this video and it make me cry again. damn! I just don't realize how lucky am I. Shouldn't be complaining anymore.

save me please

2009-08-30T13:14:00.003+08:00

felt like crying,
but I force myself not to,
feels like I am going back to the life,
the life that I am scare of,
one week is short.
but it just seems so long for me.
I wish Saturday is tomorrow,
I can pack my things and fly back to my home.

September, it's already been one year,
why I am still so afraid,
I thought I stand very well,
but I realize, I am just covering it up with my busy life,
I thought I saw him,
and I hide in the bathroom,
unwilling to go out,
till SopSop go and prove,
that is not him.
It just him, I wonder how,
if I saw THEM.

I am not the wrong one,
why I am so scare,
why so in-confident,
I was shock too when I know this is how I will react.

the number of friends increase,
the number of activities increase too,
I end up back home,
almost everyday late in the midnight,
lying on my bed,
wondering, izzit this is the life I want?

Internship end,
I felt I am lost again,
what should I do now??
Can I go back to intern life?
Work, hanging out and sleep,
the same things goes on the next day.
and I don't have to think anythings else?
Let me hide at the office.
Please??

I just don't want to go back to school. T___T

-The world does not owe you a living-

2009-08-23T12:09:00.006+08:00

To keep my tiny blog alive, I copied pasted this little article from my facebook notes.

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I read an article from 23 August 2009, Star Newspaper which was quite meaningful and worth a sharing.

Directly from the title, is true enough to get the point, "The world does not owe you a living."

This article was written by Tan Lee Huan from Bukit Mertajam, Penang, in respond to the letter written by a 18 years old girl who attempted to commit suicide.

Of cause, I won't type out the whole article, but just to jot down the point that I found meaningful.

The girl who wrote the letter is in the doldrums because she is wallowing in self-pity and indulging in so much in negative thinking.

It is not what happens to you that matters, what matters is how you respond to what happen.

Same old sentence, There are people who are worse circumstances than you, such as disabled, the refugees, among others, who still strive to live.

We can't choose our parents, our family, our background, but we can choose how we want to live.

US President Barrack Obama come from a broken family yet, in spite of all the odds, he now heads the most powerful country on earth.

You need to have courage, think positively, and have hope.

Set goals and take steps to achieve them.. Be self-reliant and determined.

The world doesn't owe you a living. It give you a chance to build your own life.

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Is so true huh. That's why I hate to show my concern to those who think they were the most pity one on earth. What happen on you today is from what you had did in the past. So, why wanna drown yourself with self-pity and start blaming everyone around you instead of sit down and think, what is my problem?

Daddy called me just now. I owes scare to receive daddy call during this time. I owes thought something happen to my family if they called at this time. Normally, the called during night sharply at 7pm.

But, thanks god, is a good news. Daddy happily announced, he win lottery again. HahaH and say wanna bank in quite a large amount of money into my account. They start our debate again,

"Not, need lar, you keep for your own use."
"Everyone must have de, you want I bank in or put at sis there 1st?"
"Not need lar, I still got enough money to use, you take the money go play."
"WHY YOU SO LOSO ONE, WIN LIAO MUST GIVE EVERYONE DE MAR!!! I BANK IN HAH!!"
"Ok lor"... kena scold and zip my mouth de...

Hereby, I would like to thanks God for always giving my dad this little happiness of winning lottery. He really deserve much more happiness for being such a great dad.

2 week more, and I will fly back to meet them de, weee~~~ for one and half month!!

Life

2009-08-09T22:48:00.004+08:00

Currently, H1N1 was a large issue in Malaysia.

Never felt it was scary till it actually suspected happen on one of my close friend. We go to work and back together everyday.

The doctor told her, it was suspected to be the virus but still on the first stage. Quarantine 2 days to see if it's really H1N1.

When I heard the news, the 1st thing I did is called her. She was crying and I don't know what to do. I told her everything will be okay. That's all what I can say.

After that, I called my daddy and he call me not to go to work. At first, I thought he worried I might get effected, but he actually told me he scare I might transfer the virus to my colleague because I was having several cough for almost one week de. My daddy owes think of other people before himself. That's what make me proud of him.

My friends started to call me go to see doctor. Because I had asthma, it will be quite troublesome if I was effected. But, I think no fever should be alright.

I will still go for work tomorrow. I hate this kind of feeling. Disobey daddy and hope nothing will happen. What to do, boss call us to go for work.

She sms'ed me and call me to see doctor too. And say sorry cause had to trouble me with her work coz we are working on a quite urgent booklet.

Stupid, that is not what we all are thinking now. We just hope you will be alright.

She called me to help her to buy a cake for her bf because Tuesday is his b'day and she was still under quarantine. She made him one but can't give him now.

That moment, I felt like, God really like to fool around with people. Two people who try so hard to be together and was so hardworking trying to maintain a relationship, why they had to gone through so many thing. @@

Hereby, I really hope everything will be alright. It will be alright.!

You, The Forever You...My LoveStory.

2009-08-04T21:40:00.005+08:00

Today, he added me in Facebook. I was shocked and take a few seconds to think, Should I approve him? And I think again, why don't. We are friends now, Don't we?

You say, your name will be forever craved in my heart. Now, I dare to say now, you are the one who will forever remember me and secretly follow my life.

The only things I think of is, "You finally dare to let people know, I am your friend" and added me into your list but re-think again, No No, maybe is just your fake account.

But the girl at your profile picture is really pretty. What am I compare to her.

This is a story of my 1st crush, or can I consider 2nd, coz I like someone at the age of 12 too...akakaka

Although I almost forget how you look like, don't even know your real name, Steven? I think is fake de huh? 651 is better, at least I saw the car before. But I still remember each moment that once happen on us. I don't care if you are sincere or not. But you are the only one who make me know what is the real feeling of loving someone. Which I can't find it anymore till now. Maybe that's the reason I keep failed in my relationship after you. *wait, we are not in a relationship, is puppy love*

Of coz, I am very sure that is history. History will just be forever stored inside my heart. Maybe sometimes I will think back, but just if I am hardworking enough to flip over the history book.

I was 18 that time, or more accurately 17 and 7 month. Form 5.

1st of October, Monday, I was pretending hardworking reading literature book at the laksa house opposite Chung Hua having supper with family after tution because I am sitting for pra SPM tomolo. Sunddenlly, my pink GD55 rang. That time still young, scare daddy might scold me and ask who is that. Walk to outside and answer the call. You were at the other side of the phone. A totally stranger for me. You asked, Am I the SHE, Selina? *wtf the 3 of us are well know as Bintulu SHE* stupid@@ The first thing girl always ask, "How do you get my phone number?" You said, you pick it up on floor. *Darn, I am so stupid, I believe it. @___@*

Start from that day, we were on phone everynight. I will wait for ur call everynight at my sis room. When you called, I will rush back to my own room. I have a very bad weakness. I felt in love easily.

One week, on the 7th day we knew each other, you told me you actually had girlfriend. I really felt the pain in my heart. I had my own prinsip too. I don't wanna be wolf's girl. I never wanna grab other people bf and ruin their relationship. I decided not to contact with you anymore.

But, you find me back and told me you had break with your gf. I am not stupid, but I choose to believe you to lied myself. I will wait for your call everyday. Sometimes, you didn't called and I will dozed off disappointingly. But, I will never called you and ask why. Becoz I never dare to call guy, even till now. @@ Maybe, that the good of me for you. You can keep me secretly and I won't did sth that ruin your relationship.

Oh ya hor, forget to say, He got a gf which both side of the family already decided they must get married. (my friend told me de, a neighbour to her gf)

**continue to my story**

Think back, I am so stupid. I know you take ecstasy and I told SopSop, nevermind ar, I don't mind...@@

I talk to you till 5am, unwilling to hang up although SPM is on the next day and I haven't study yet. Grab my book and study for 2 hour and go for my SPM. Luckily, I have a little bit of clever, I still able to get 4A's and other all B. Not a good result but still not bad huh.

We went out 2 or 3 times only. Once is when you drive me to Siew Hui's house. Not even a 5 min journey. 0.o *ohmigod, I wear like a crazy colorful barbie doll that time... so shame lar* The other time is at night. Just the two of us. You don't even dare to stop the car, drive your 651 whole Bintulu. I was just like sitting in the car wondering, izzit so shameful if people know I am your friend?? When the car was out of petrol, you drive to the farthest petrol station from the town to get refill, which was the one opposite my new house now. When the car finally drove into the petrol station with light, I sign and said, Finally, I can see the light. One more times is when you go drive Sop Sop. You said she look like lakia and I slap you hard on your hand. =___=

I did a lot of stupid things for you. And you make me disappointed a million of times too.

I was angry at you and randomly go meet a net friend ALONE!. That time very heng mirc and icq de mah. And I almost cried. Not because he wanna rape me, is because he was damn fcking ugly and nerd. He buy a kfc salad, and force me to share with him. @@ I am so unwilling coz felt like vomiting. I smsed you and called you to come and save me. You didn't come. *stupid and childish huh, I admit*

You gave me your friendster account, and I go to add you using my own account and open your account again to approve myself.. *omigod, Lindy did actually did sth so shameless before huh* More shameful de thing is, you deleted me coz afraid people knew you know me.

I didn't change my hp number since Form 2 in case someday u might called me.

I keep update my Friendster although I had migrate to Facebook, coz I know you will view me.

The second part of the stories continue when I decided to goes KL. You asked me to stay and go with you to Kuching. Honestly, I didn't thrust you. So, I didn't. I choose to go KL. Main reason is of coz, I hate Bintulu. I hate those brainless bitch there.

I sew you a puppy and you promised you will come and take.*uhh...small girls did de, now call me sew ar...slow slow wait lor hoh* I wait till I don't even know when I fall asleep, the day before I went KL. The next morning awake, I put the puppy on my bed and left for airport. The puppy lost and I can't found it till now. At airport, I keep hoping you may come and sent me off. *watch too many ou xiang movie* It won't happen de. You called and said you reached, but I already go in waiting for boarding. Of coz, is a lie too.

Reach KL, I firmly decided to start my new life. Of coz, I miss you a lot. We still contact and you seems like know everything about me, like putting a spy beside me. I try very hard to forget you.

One time, I was happily playing at Genting with my gang, when a friend of mine called me and said you wanna married de. I tried to control my tears and act normal, but I can't. I cried all the way down from Genting. *stupid till@@* Did you really get married, I don't know, coz you said you didn't.

Things change when I was in a relationship. Is true, I goes with my 1st ex because I thought I can forget you by using this way. I really did forget you for sometimes. Till I faced problem in my relationship and I was thinking of break. You called me and ask me to be your gf. Without further thinking, I go and break with my 1st ex. Really, I owe my 1st ex more than he owe me. He is the one who should hate me.

I hate myself for keep believing in you. Till last semester, when I went back to Bintulu, you called me. You said you saw me but I seems like doesn't recognize you at all. You know I work together with my brother and you called me don't work. You said you will paid for me to stay at home. You just know about money, coz you are from rich family. You don't know the reason I work. Not because of the money of coz, is because my little brother's 1st time working outside. I wanna take care of him. Sometimes, you called and say you were outside my working place. I was so scare and wanna hide myself. I don't want to let you see how I have turned into now. I don't know why. I am just scare.

Perhaps, this is just a nth special story of my life. If now I saw you, I will bravely said hi to you and your girlfriend. Things in this world is so strange. When I keep want you, you keep run. When I doesn't seems like mind the existence of you, you keep appear.

Believe me, the world is round. Things take turn. When I really seriously trying hard in my second relationship, it failed too. I just can't find back the same feeling like once I had towards you. Love your everything. @@ Maybe is what I deserve from treating my 1st ex like that.

I believe, if the things was yours, it will always be yours. If not, how hard you try to get it, it will flew away too.

*wink* a very long post @@ crap... SO long didn't write crap in my blog...I felt so great..^^

M.O.S

2009-07-25T22:50:00.009+08:00

Wanna relax yourself and feel as free as a bird without spending any money? *for girls only, guy need spend hell lots of money*

Head to clubbing during ladies night. ~~ weeee

Things happen like this, plus2 say feel like clubbing when we are on the way to pick up Esther
and mWey . When they get into the car, Esther said they talk about clubbing too just now. So, we decided to go on Thursday and try out on M.O.S cause is AntiSmoking de. You won't get ur hair smokey!!

Having fun is nice but there is a price to pay. I was super damn sleepy at work on Friday. Reach home at 3am, bath and hop onto my bed on 4am but I had to get up for work again on 7am. @@ I was so blur until I cut my hand with art card @@ and bring my hp instead of bottle to refill water.

Here is some photo of that night. ^^

Ladies got one glass of free liquor. 90% soda 10% liquor for me, I finished it in seconds. @@

We enter the club for the 1st time to survey around to see if we wanna change to CocoBanana. M.O.S has 7 times bigger dance floor compare to Barcelona. =X no wonder Barcelona goes under maintainence. hahaH

We felt hungry so we went to Wong Kok for dinner. @@

Esther's honey lemon.

Mine ang dao bing.

plus2's mango smoothie..

Wai Loong's <-- dunno correct spelling bo healthy milk.

Esther and plus2 had toast.

My noodle. =)

Wai Loong's noodle.

Opssy, forget to shoot Justin''s food and drink. Just realise.. gg

The laube chop, not those use scan only can saw de.. f3

The free liquor..

Another liquor from plus2's friend.

The girls. I am still look too childish. wtf I mean the way I wear. I know my face look like aunty. f3

The guyz.

0.o

The sexy~~

Camwhore time~~

Face super duper oily!!!

I think hor the make up is way to heavy. @@

The Endz. Looking forward for next Friday's nite at Republic ^^ Esther on cat walk for A Cut Above. JYJY~~

And also next next Thursday, Astro Contemporary Award. I told my dad I am going for Astro award. He was so excited and asked me, Can we see you on tv? @@ of coz not and he remind me to wear prettier, don't throw his face.. @@ Itulah my daddy.

Shirley Sze Siew Yee

2009-07-20T18:58:00.003+08:00

In respond to this post, Lindy Ling
wu wu...

I wanna say, I dun date u because I know is the first week u start ur study, sure wanna rest at home for the first weekend de mar...

I din date u go watch movie because I know you will go with me for sure even you have oledy watch it. And you won't tell me and just watch for the second time with me quietly. Just like you skip class without my knowledge just to accompany me when I got break up.

And I know you scare hot and use public transport. If you go out with Segi, you can go out at night and sit car de. =( I just told Aireen that day, sooner or later you will have a new bf and have your own life. Aireen owes envy me for having such a good friend like you. I always say, yes, and I doesn't deserve it, for what I had did in the pass.

I want you to have your own life without being burden by me. I clearly remember I had once neglect you when I was with my tat heartless ex. I don't want myself to disturb your life just because I am single now. T___T You know lar, you this friend, me, so want face de...

One nite, while I am chatting with Zen Kock, at the same time talking with my dad, I make my decisions to go back hometown de tat time. I don't want myself to regret later. T__T I told zen kock dun told you first, later you will sad.. wtf like you are my lover..keke...he answer me, you dun think too much, she will soon have a bf, married and have family. She won't care if you are at KL or not. I didn't ans him, coz I am sure he dunno we have certain feeling like, I felt brave because you are somewhere nearby me. woot!! And I think my colleague will think I am les for sure. zzz I AM NOT!!!!

I am so down last few dayz. Honestly, I felt lonely, but I still have the intention to ignore everyone who carez. I was emo till I write the previous post "How Big is our Heart" And tat midnight, I received a sms from Kenny, I think, He call me to find you or Shirleen to talk, dun keep to myself. I didn't reply him and say to myself. Why owes I am the one who owes bring you trouble when I am emo. When you are emo, you will just keep it to yourself. Actually, how much did I know or care about your things. I just doesn't deserve the carez.

Thousand of times people asking me, why you don't want to have a bf again. I will use a super good reason. Becoz I wan back Sarawak de after graduate. Now date, later how wuo. But, actually, I am so tired with the process of love, and end up with break at last. It just like, why we wanna fall in love, when we oledy know the ending. Single might a bit lonely, but at least is peaceful.

I am not a greedy person. Is enough to have my family, you this very good friend(and NO ONE CAN REPLACE YOU IN MY HEART TOO), my utar's friends, Shirleen, Negi, Kulat and some other anonymous's number who keep sms me and carez me. I don't reply doesn't mean I don't appreciate. I really do. Just I have walk till this point, I don't want to turn back, not even a glance.

Did I go out of topic, hahaha,*run back* Sop Sop bou bui, get well soon, Don't get beat so easily when there is evil sick monster in you. Remember, you are always the best and you deserve a better life and to be threaten good. With or without me, we have to live our life too. Remember to reserved you room for me when I come KL...akakaka who know I say say only, later din back sarawak pun..@@ like you said de, future who knows.

Lastly, ps I LUBB YOU!!!!!

dun emo liao, u better keep your promise go shopping with me once you get your salary...f3